saciated...hopeless...

i feel so hopeless now, it seems that the cosmic elements does not conspire to ease my difficulties and let the good tidings rain. sometimes i want to give up the fight, and die instead. since i am ready to die anytime.

i am getting tired of everything... can i just severe my life? but this is not mine i believe so. i just hope i can still survive this feat.

i am also getting tired of r_m_ ; i am pissed off of his attitude of taking me for granted without any signs if he is still alive.

grr.

irritated...

feeling hopeless...